Wow. This week has been crazy.


That crazy that, well, I keep forgetting what's happened then remembering. But rest assured, crazy in a good way

We got back from mystery holiday with Steve's family on Saturday - Stayed in a £2.5 MILLION Villa in the snazzy posh part of Marbella in southern Spain (it looked like Beverly Hills - we were looking over fences the whole time, this wasn't a holiday place, but a residential area and MAN those places are expensive) had a week of awesomeness, bonded with the kids (I'm now the fun Aunt, and Uncle steven is boring unless Auntie Heather Kicks him in the pool then lets Amelie and William push him in, much hilarity)

Then, Monday I had an interview for a 2D/UI artist role, felt I messed it up (MASSIVE HEADACHE made me forget to show half my stuff, thought I looked lethargic, and my hair is currently in a complete state because swimming pool water doesn't like it and I forgot my crochet hook... and... I don't know, I just didn't feel like I'd said what I wanted to say) The place was... man, it was completely not what I was expecting. All I'm going to say is that it was SHINEY. And SHINEY is GOOD. There were other girls there too! Females! Other people who go through the exact same Hormonal challenges as I do! That made me so happy!

Then I found out the job included doing concept art - a team of concept artists. Oh my face must've been a picture then. I went from feeling grotty to realising I had to tone the grin down a bit.

then when I left, I thought 'Hell, I'm not going to get this. There's other people applying, I've only a year and a half of experience, I've made a melon of myself and it's just too good to be true, I don't deserve this at all.'

The next day, I got some very positive feedback, including something along the lines of 'Very enthusiastic, nice to get someone who knows what their talking about'


After that I started praying to any deity that would listen.




















And several must have been listening - BECAUSE I GOT THE JOB!


I start on Wednesday 17th (less than a week away!) I apparently beat off someone with a significant amount more experience than me, and it's still sinking in, because I keep forgetting I got it until people remind me


So yeah, fun times



Tomorrow's my last day at my current job. The nearer the day's been getting, the more reflective I've been about my time there, and I've come to the conclusion that the reason I despaired so much there wasn't because the world hated me or the place was evil, but more because I had no steve there and I couldn't see the end to my loneliness which after 2 years apart, wears you down more than you realise. Since steve asked me to move in with him, and I got the ball rolling, I've been going back to the happy me that's been missing for... well... 2 years =/ I think that, mixed with a few other things just made everything spiral out of control a bit and I found it hard to hold on.

Basically, I was ready to move in with steve, and couldn't and my head made a barrier to everything because of that. Stranger things have happened.


I just want to be happy, you know? =/



Anyway. Here's to a New House, New Job, New Life!



(and lets hope it stays like that this time!)
















(next house+job+life move will be to CANADA! Which I want to wait for at least 5 years till we do that)










PS - jounal skin IS NOT BY ME - I can't do that so, I'm using this lovely one by because it's right up my street When I've got time, I'll try to do my own, but I'm pretty happy with this one